*** believeing ..wishing ..dreaming ***

i
believed
i
wished
i
dreamed
&
*it happened*
when
i least expected it
when
i wasn't looking
when
i
was
ready
he appeared
&
*....he was believing too....*


thank you
mr wright
♥

*** knock knock ***

little doors
&
sweet cottages
are on my
mind

** dream big pixie door **

wish i could figure out how to get a good photo :)
** shoot me your ideas if you have them!! **

just as it says on the door
~ dream big ~

i'm over here
dreaming
BIG
how else right??

also
dreaming
of
blue skies
a bright orange sun
&
**** twinkling stars ****
its been a very long winter!!
i just finished this one..
it's not available yet..
i'll let you know when
:)

i know i haven't written in a while..
things got a little tangled for a moment..
but all
is
good!!


thanks for all the emails ..
is nice to know so many of you
follow me..
honestly ..
i've just been
very
very
tired

...i'm getting used to my crazy schedule ...
so
yes
i will be back posting more
&
catching up
with
you!

until then..
keep
believing
&
dreaming
you know i will be!!

~ maggie ~

*** queen of hearts ***

*** queens of hearts ***

i know
super cute huh?
available here

i haven't posted in a while
i've written
but
didn't post
i know
it doesn't count then right??
:)

i will post
tonight
or
tomorrow

so
until then..
sit tight
&
enjoy!!

~ maggie ~

***smiling ..looking back.. kissing you goodbye 2010***

sooooo

new years is around the corner
wow
this year flew by!!!

im not big on resolutions
like
*i will lose weight
*make a million
*get a six pack
........
me
i'm more into resolving
*
i want to be thankful for my past year
learn from it
resolve
&
move forward
*** if i lose weight.. make a million & get a 6 pack **BONUS ***

2010
another year that hit me
hard core

i learned
sooooooooooo
much*

where do i start??

colman
* my amazing sunshine *
he's 13
will hug me goodnight..
tell me he loves me..
remember
***he is 13** im so lucky ***
&
they said it wouldn't last
:)

he laughs with me
holds my hand when it's slippery
catches me when i fall
goes to movies with me
....even chick flicks ...
out to dinner
sledding
wants me to cut his hair instead of me taking him somewhere
&
when he hates it
says
" it's not your fault.. i should have told you what i wanted better "
*seriously.. what a doll.. his new cut is really cute tho*
he smiles & laughs & jokes
with
me
is my biggest fan
&
i am
his
as much as i can't erase the pain of the divorce
i wish
i could
all
i can do is
love
&
get along with his daddy
&
that
i do!

*resolve*

my divorce
yes
a big
OUCH
looking back
* i realize i was so fortunate *
i raised my son
i
painted
hiked
biked
played
all with colman
*everyday*
we lived in our dream home
i started a successful business
****
that
i
will
have supporting me again in this coming year
****
..my needs were met ..
..our needs were met..
the
love
it didn't stop with his dad
just changed...
just wasn't what we both needed after 15 years

*resolve*

work
i like it
but
does it like me???

i hesitate to say anything about my job
i am so grateful for it
i work with
some
AMAZING PEOPLE
but honestly
more
griping
bitching
moaning
not
so
amazing people

ish
"would you shut it already people"

so
i'm quiet
don't say much
i just
do my job
smile & giggle
with a few
&
that's what i will do

i forgot not everyone will like you
i of course for years only had to deal with people who liked
me
enjoyed
my art
my dogs
we shared interests

duh maggie???

*i miss being liked for just being me*
i painted
made people
smile
laugh
remember a moment
a pet
a child
a friendship
it meant something
&
it was appreciated

*it is what i dreamed of doing*

i realize now how much
* i miss my paint brushes*
* i miss being "liked"*
i realize
*i would have colored my hair & disguised my age
had i worked a traditional job*
yep
that was a shocker ...
me
????? conform ?????
i never thought the work place was such an
influential & discriminating
place
but
it
is

i never thought i was
"old"
apparently
i am
i never thought i would say
"geez that generation sucks"
but
yep
i said it
i'm
old
or
yes indeed
i am correct
*that generation sucks*

i knew i was fortunate
now i
KNOW
i want it back
to
work
live
be
&
*make a living making myself & others happy*

HUH??

almost unheard of
but
i had it
still do
just need to
focus

* perhaps a few classes back teaching the kids art will help*

i realize that the last few years ...
i had a extremely full plate
was grieving so much
&
it takes time to heal
now
i'm ready

...house sold...
...we have started looking for new places...
...we close in 2 weeks ....
im overwhelmed with having to move
all my possessions into storage until i find a place
....but i can do this...
simple
next move...
our
new home
* mine & colmans *

* resolve*

my paint brushes..
digging out my mailing lists & getting back what i had but better
*PRIORITY*

finding my place in this world
as a single woman
happy
capable
dreaming
hoping
&
making it happen
will be
a
reality

on my own
with my
colman
our dogs
shy cat
family & friends
that believe in me
in
us

* resolve *

i hope your 2010 was full of
lessons learned
growth
love
&
found peace
&
that
your
2011
well...
be the same
just
* more sparkling *
sounds pretty good yea??

*hold on tight & believe*
~ maggie ~

* shes amazing *

* my mom *

i remember as a little girl
KNOWING
my
* mom was so beautiful *
her hair naturally curled perfectly
* she never had a bad hair day *

i loved her
... jewelry...
&
...her clothes...
...she had perfect eyebrows...
never wore more than mascara..blush & lipstick
&
was
ALWAYS
...noticed when she walked in a room...

she
.. smelled good...
all the time!
is it silly i remember that?
* i think it was it was guerlain or chloe *

...she was always remembered ..
couple weeks ago a boy i know from elementary school
said he remember her tieing his shoe
for him...
i love that he remembers she took time to do that
&
...it left a sweet impression on him...

she could
make
ANYTHING!!

* every halloween costume *
* christmas stockings *
* of course i still have THAT stocking *
&
* yes thats me in the play pen *
...she had an amazing garden full of tulips...
* this is probably pre-spring bloom
trust me it was amazing *

took us on adventures
&
enjoyed
it
&
US!!

* all 4 of her babies *
you name it
she could do it!!
&
...to top it off...
she played in leaves!

*i think i may like this best*
nothing like a beautiful woman
not afraid to have
fun
&
get dirty
!!

she
is
* amazing *
* brave * & * beautiful *

she has outlived both her parents ..
&
...her own daughter..
... a mothers greatest fear...
she is a
cancer survivor
&
she knows she has many angels

* she can swim like a fish*
* walk faster than anybody i know without breaking into a sweat*
*her toes are always pointed*
*her hands always lotioned*
* fingernails always filed *
&
*she can laugh so hard she cries*

i miss her...
she lives in arizona...
i just wanted to let her
know how much
i love her
&
think of her
&
hope one day to
achieve even half her strength

November 9th
she turned
70
&
she
was thrilled
!!!

*this is my favorite photo of her *

ask anyone that knows her
* her friends* family * children * those who she mothers *

* they will tell you the same *



I LOVE YOU MOM
I ADMIRE YOU
&
HOPE ONE DAY
I WILL ACHIEVE
YOUR STRENGTH
...brains & beauty ...
not so sure i can do that
but
strength
* my goal *
:)

so for no special reason
outside
of
letting you
know

I LOVE & MISS YOU MOM

i write this
to
YOU

* all of you go hug your moms *
&
linda
if your reading this
please
go hug "mom" for me
:)

~ maggie ~

*** can you read lips? ***

yep ..
me
29 minutes to get to work
&
*** NO CAR BRUSH/ICE SCRAPER ***

i was packed in ..
my own igloo on wheels!

you would think after a couple winters here i would get
with the program..
obviously i've been in denial!!

tis the season of...

* warming up the car *
* scraping the windshield *
* freezing cold gas nozzles *
* frozen shut car windows & doors *
* frosty windows that refuse to defrost *
not to mention
ramming the grocery cart
through
snow drifts & snow slop
to get from store to car...

so with that said...
i thank this little house
so shiney & bright
that had me driving my mobile igloo around the block twice to admire...


so
until it thaws
this is me
* nanook of the north *

adapting..
conquering
&
bashing
on
regardless!!

* holding my new snowbrush/ice scaper *

...stay warm & buried out...

~ maggie ~

** me ... you & hulu **

so ..

here i sit after months of comcast
scrolling warnings across the top of my tv screen..
they warned me
to hook up my adapter for this new digital tv dealie..
they
warned that i may lose some channels
&
yes
i did ..

slowly...
they wiped out channels ..
a few at a time
but
i had
bravo
i was fine..
but
then
i noticed all i had was 5 channels
which was still
ok...
i love sleeping to court shows..
* remember i typically sleep in the day *
so still all was good...

then
today...
i had the
evening
off..

i was feeling
* inspired *
* awake *
* ...had programs to watch tonight... *
i
was
ready to

HOOK IT UP

my box doesn't work

ugh

so
tonight
on my night off
i am missing
the new episode of housewives of atlanta
one of my guilty pleasures
* along with bridezillas *
..
i think i may want to live vicariously
through these women...
is that terrible?

as much as i desire to be
respected
cherished
&
treated wonderfully
because
of
love
&
mindfulness

not
because
i scare the shitt out of you
so
you better do & say as i want you too!!

yep..
you know what im talking about!
you've watched these shows
whats up with these women..
&
men
what are you thinking??
really
you like that??

maybe i should conduct an experiment..
should i channel a little
nene or kim?

can you imagine
me acting like that!!!

i don't think i could deal with myself...

forget it

it will happen for me...
i just need to get through
the frogs
right?

until then
&
until
i pick up my new digital adapter box
in the morning...

it's me
YOU
&
hulu

* sweet dreams *

~ maggie ~