Monday, May 14, 2012

*** monkey bar queen ***

OOOOOO what a week of adventures!!
last sunday
i ziplined..
yup

ME

i jumped off a 70 foot platform
&
 SOARED


* here's a link to more photos *

***** it was amazing ****

now  some of you may
remember 
i like to do the monkey bars
(  nikki )
i started to do them after my sister passed away
she could do them
ALWAYS
me
NEVER
that
is
until after she passed
now
this is the 3rd spring
 &
i CAN do them

 
....now that i have moved...
 i have not seen
any bars

that is
until
today
:)

i spent mothers day biking around at the beach with colman
&
we came upon some bars!
...they were right next to the road...
in a empty lot
....no other playground equiptment....
just
old slippery wobbly bars

so we stopped

it took
2 takes
but guess what
!?!?!?

* i did it *

take 1

take 2


* taaa daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *


im hoping you all had a wonderful
mothers day
&
that you felt
 loved
&
appreciated

with it being the anniversary

it was a bitter sweet day
but i have to say

THANK YOU
yes 
you

all of you that posted on my
facebook page today suporting me
 when i posted
i am ready for a new puppy!

i cant express how wonderful it
feels to know
you guys think its time too!!!

hope your week
is wonderful
&
 that you find something to challenge yourselves!!

~ enjoy ~  
maggie
aka: monkey bar queen *

Saturday, May 05, 2012

*** my sonshine ***


thats him
* my sonshine *
he'll be 15 on sunday
yes
15
!!!!!!!!

* i know i can hardly believe it myself *

...you may ask why i call him sonshine...
..well duh..

look at that warm ray of light!!
*
i know im totally his mom huh?
 you know the song
"you are my sunshine"
right?

well
...i like many women had a rough delivery....
he was several days late
...his actual due date was april 23rd...
i will never forget the night before i went in to be induced
*may 4th*
i had a dream
 .....he was just hanging out ...
wearing a top hat
swinging a cane
doin' a little soft shoe
taking
 his
 own
 sweet
 time
*
the next day
....i sat at the hospital with babies being born all around me...
but
nope
not mine
 * 
 on
may 6th
they went in to get him!

my
"lusty"
sounding
goo-less baby was born
* seriously no goo *

but
....he was whisked away...
his lung had collapsed
....they put him in a tent....
a
bubble
 over his little
bucket crib bed
in the
 NICU
....i was terrified...

i was stiched up & brought in to him

all i could see from my gurney
...was feet...
huge
feet
!!!

to the gasps of nurses
i sat up freshly belly stitched
 &
i tickled those toes
*
24 hours later
....they brought him to me...
those 24 hrs

longer
 * than the 9 PLUS months until i laid my eyes on him *

we had to stay a few more days
then
he stopped breathing in my arms

my baby was blue.
....completely...
BLUE

i called the nurse screaming
his dad started CPR
...a band of nurses ran in...
 &
whisked him away
they saved him
again
he was in
 NICU
*
i didnt sleep
....i sat in there & held my baby...

he was hooked up to soo many monitors
all the
beeps & false alarms

i held my baby & rocked him 
wires & all
...trying to drown out the beeps...
i sang the only song i knew

* you are my sunshine *



the night before he turns 15
i can honestly say
as i struggle to
make
my
mark
in the world
*
i  realize 
he
is
my mark
my
amazing
mark
 has been
made
&
continues to be made
....every moment of every day....
 i cherish him
&
 his sweet soul responds
  
*
happy 15th birthday
 to 
you
my
  sweet sonshine

*

***i love you***
ps: your brighter than the sun!!!