*** monkey bar queen ***

OOOOOO what a week of adventures!!

last sunday

i ziplined..

yup

ME

i jumped off a 70 foot platform

&

 SOARED

* here's a link to more photos *

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.3776992430894.2163317.1459363889&type=3&l=7a46bd0a9c

***** it was amazing ****

now  some of you may
remember 

i like to do the monkey bars

(  nikki )

i started to do them after my sister passed away

she could do them

ALWAYS

me

NEVER
that
is
until after she passed

now

this is the 3rd spring

 &

i CAN do them

 

....now that i have moved...

 i have not seen

any bars

that is

until

today

:)

i spent mothers day biking around at the beach with colman

&

we came upon some bars!

...they were right next to the road...

in a empty lot

....no other playground equiptment....

just

old slippery wobbly bars

so we stopped

it took

2 takes

but guess what

!?!?!?

* i did it *

take 1

take 2

* taaa daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *

im hoping you all had a wonderful

mothers day

&

that you felt

 loved

&

appreciated

with it being the anniversary

of my sweet herbies passing

it was a bitter sweet day

but i have to say

THANK YOU

yes 

you

all of you that posted on my

facebook page today suporting me

 when i posted

i am ready for a new puppy!

i cant express how wonderful it

feels to know

you guys think its time too!!!

hope your week

is wonderful

&

 that you find something to challenge yourselves!!

~ enjoy ~  

maggie

aka: monkey bar queen *

*** my sonshine ***

thats him

* my sonshine *

he'll be 15 on sunday

yes

15

!!!!!!!!

* i know i can hardly believe it myself *

...you may ask why i call him sonshine...

..well duh..

look at that warm ray of light!!

*

i know im totally his mom huh?

 you know the song

"you are my sunshine"

right?

well

...i like many women had a rough delivery....

he was several days late

...his actual due date was april 23rd...

i will never forget the night before i went in to be induced

*may 4th*

i had a dream

 .....he was just hanging out ...

wearing a top hat

swinging a cane

doin' a little soft shoe

taking
 his
 own
 sweet
 time

*

the next day

....i sat at the hospital with babies being born all around me...

but

nope

not mine
 * 

 on

may 6th

they went in to get him!

my

"lusty"

sounding

goo-less baby was born

* seriously no goo *

but

....he was whisked away...

his lung had collapsed

....they put him in a tent....

a
bubble

 over his little

bucket crib bed

in the
 NICU

....i was terrified...

i was stiched up & brought in to him

all i could see from my gurney

...was feet...

huge

feet

!!!

to the gasps of nurses

i sat up freshly belly stitched

 &

i tickled those toes

*

24 hours later

....they brought him to me...

those 24 hrs

longer

 * than the 9 PLUS months until i laid my eyes on him *

we had to stay a few more days

then

he stopped breathing in my arms

my baby was blue.

....completely...

BLUE

i called the nurse screaming

his dad started CPR

...a band of nurses ran in...

 &

whisked him away

they saved him

& 

again

he was in

 NICU

*

i didnt sleep

....i sat in there & held my baby...

he was hooked up to soo many monitors

all the

beeps & false alarms

i held my baby & rocked him 

wires & all

...trying to drown out the beeps...

i sang the only song i knew

* you are my sunshine *

the night before he turns 15

i can honestly say

as i struggle to

make

my

mark

in the world

*

i  realize 

he
is
my mark

* 

my

amazing

mark
 has been

made
&
continues to be made
....every moment of every day....
 i cherish him
&
 his sweet soul responds
  

*

happy 15th birthday
 to 
you
my
  sweet sonshine

*

***i love you***
ps: your brighter than the sun!!!

** i took a deep breath **

im breathing as one now

...for years through all the grief...

...when i thought i couldnt catch my breath...

she was there

by my side..

... doing the breathing...

... licking the tears ...

... holding me up ...

... spooning me at night...

... inspiring me...

... making me smile ...

...making me laugh until tears ran down my cheeks...

... she was the wink to my smile ...

*

she would wag her tail every time

...i walked in the room...

... every time colman walked in the room...

even when it seemed she was sound asleep

...she wagged her tail...

...you could fall on her...

she wagged her tail

&

gave kisses

*

...i told her

i was happy...

that

...colman was happy...

&

i could see

she

was happy

too

*

she would

sashay around me

&

...kiss me...

reminding me of

her

unconditional devotion

&

love

*

... she is in every painting ...

all 8ooo plus paintings

she's

..my muse..

she still will be

* always *

i took a deep breath

deeper than i have in

... years ...

&

a long exhale

a

very

very

long one

kissed her beauty marks

thanked her

told her it was ok

&

that it was time for her to go for now

she wagged her tail

&

placed her head in my lap

*

7 months & one day after herbie received his wings

a bell rang for 'hooray ruby'

my beauty has her wings now

too

* june 20 2003-january 12th 2012 *

*** cupids little gateway ***

* cupids gateway *

ok

so many of you know i have a thing

for

little

...fairy...

...gnome...

...pixie...

...woodland nymph...

doors

portals

walk-throughs

gate ways

*

the

magic

the

mystery

* i LOVE it *

i think i have always loved the idea of

a parallel universe

so

whats a better way to welcome others

than

with little doors

*

you may remember my post from couple years ago

here's a refresher

just click

here

i decided it was a donut fairy..

remember

if not

just click

here

hee hee

i love that story

:)

so

i've gone on to make several other doors

yup

I

MAKE THEM

&

guess what??

the doors actually

OPEN!!

* i love that the door opens *

ok

back to the other doors i've made

...wisdom fairy...

...friendship pixie...

...belief nymph...

...mulligan gnome...

( gathers random balls at the golf course )

...spicy love chica pixie...

...taco gnome...

i could go on & on

i've made

ALOT

*

currently

thinking a

...merlot fairy...

...chocolate nymph...

...pizza pixie...

express way

would all be wonderful

right now

* im a little hungry*

:)

so here ya go

*cupids little gateway *

the door for valentines day

yes

but

really

* the door for the whole year *

the door to

remind

you

to

LOVE

UNCONDITIONALLY

&

BELIEVE

*

...by the way...

its available

:)

you know the drill

click

right

here

* muah*

~ maggie ~

* hey valentine *

i can't imagine im the only one who

LOVES

to hang things in

...nooks & crannies ...

...on every knob....

...door

or

...

cupboard...

..

...random hooks...

...tree branch...

or

... on a fabulous push pin...

my

all perfect locations to

*** hang a little surprise smile ***

TOOOO MANY PLACES TO LIST

so ...

... im sharing my favorite little bit of love

.. with you ..

*** those who also love a little surprise ***

personalized with any name

or

your choice

*

~ Be Mine ~

~ Valentine ~

honesty

anything goes

even breed of your choice

or

send photo of the pup you love

&

i got it covered

*

available

*here *

enjoy

your cupids

~ maggie & ruby *