** me ... you & hulu **

so ..

here i sit after months of comcast
scrolling warnings across the top of my tv screen..
they warned me
to hook up my adapter for this new digital tv dealie..
they
warned that i may lose some channels
&
yes
i did ..

slowly...
they wiped out channels ..
a few at a time
but
i had
bravo
i was fine..
but
then
i noticed all i had was 5 channels
which was still
ok...
i love sleeping to court shows..
* remember i typically sleep in the day *
so still all was good...

then
today...
i had the
evening
off..

i was feeling
* inspired *
* awake *
* ...had programs to watch tonight... *
i
was
ready to

HOOK IT UP

my box doesn't work

ugh

so
tonight
on my night off
i am missing
the new episode of housewives of atlanta
one of my guilty pleasures
* along with bridezillas *
..
i think i may want to live vicariously
through these women...
is that terrible?

as much as i desire to be
respected
cherished
&
treated wonderfully
because
of
love
&
mindfulness

not
because
i scare the shitt out of you
so
you better do & say as i want you too!!

yep..
you know what im talking about!
you've watched these shows
whats up with these women..
&
men
what are you thinking??
really
you like that??

maybe i should conduct an experiment..
should i channel a little
nene or kim?

can you imagine
me acting like that!!!

i don't think i could deal with myself...

forget it

it will happen for me...
i just need to get through
the frogs
right?

until then
&
until
i pick up my new digital adapter box
in the morning...

it's me
YOU
&
hulu

* sweet dreams *

~ maggie ~

*** thankful ***

because you...

yes
ALL
OF
* YOU *

the ones who
...remind me that my dreams come true...
that
nothing is
impossible
that
I CAN DO THIS!!

for my angels that...
breathe for me when i can't catch my breath
who
brush off my knees & ass when i tumble

for the girls who
laugh
cry
&
smile
with
me...

debbie & katie
you
unconditionally
are
there for me
always
as if no time passes
* i need that *

for
angie
you have know idea how often i wear my
*hugging scarf*

for my boys
...greggy..brian..chazzy ...
&
timmy
you have been there with me
for what seems
* forever *
your friendships mean so much to me...
your dating advice..
encouragement..
&
laughter
carries me & gives me faith
in
MEN!

for you
dogs lovers
&
art collectors
* you know who you are!!*
you have followed me..
collected my art..
&
walked the last few messy years with me
&
became amazing
life long
friends

* vicki..sandy..melisa *
you have
absolutely
... virtually hugged me...
your amazing gifts of love
surround me
* DAILY *

mom
* your my constant strength *

jamie & mel
you both
have
been
* selfless*
* amazingly *
* completely *
* undeniably *
* believed in me *
* picked me up *
* literally helped me stand in court when my body just wanted to collapse *
* you wiped my tears *
&
risked you sanity & marriage ..
to
keep me.. colman & our furry family together
you
have
sat back
unconditionally
*trusted*
*believed*
&
put you lives
on the line
FOR ME

this never has gone unnoticed

i love you!!

even you
yes
you

my x-factor
without
you
i would not have my
**greatest accomplishment **

i'll see you tomorrow..
thrilled your bringing your
* amazing potatoes *
&
that
you
&
i
have a mutual love for
colman
that
will keep him
* safe *
* secure *
&
* confident *

you will always be
welcome at my table andy

i'm
so
grateful
...to all of you...

thank you!

~ maggie ~

*** snow worshiping ***

*** snow worshiping ***

she is so fascinated with the flakes...
the cold...
doesn't even mind the wind...
true devotion!!

warms my chilly heart..
:)

my snow worshiper
available
here

enjoy!!
~ maggie ~

*** just a couple pieces of chocolate ***

calorie free chocolate love ...
yum right??

*available here*

enjoy enjoy
~ maggie ~

*** reindork ***

* reindork *
it's undeniable
all
bernese
are
silly & dorky!
BUT
*** my herbie takes the prize ***

the sweetest..
clumsiest..
most awkward..
lanky...
lovable...
faithful..
loyal...
&
sometimes stinky
monster!

i adore him!!

you know the drill
reindork available
here

enjoy!
~ maggie~

*** little drummer boy ***

* little drummer boy *

i know
wrong holiday
but you get the idea*

available
HERE

enjoy!!
~ maggie ~

* 25 random facts *

so my sweet dear em

wants to know
* 25 random facts about me *
so
here we go!!

1~ i have a bizarre love of all things marshmallow
2~ everything i own has dog hair on it
3~ there is always at least one knot in my hair at all times...a curse*
3~ i wear my dads socks when i need strength or comfort
4~ i use my sisters pencils when i have a creative block
5~ i can fly in my dreams & once when colman showed up in my dream i taught him to fly with me!
6~ i loved being married & hope one day to be again... just better
7~ if you can't reach me by phone it's because i lost it & the ringer is off or battery dead
8~ i believe in angels
9~my moms name is bonnie... it's her birthday today!*
10~ i bake incredible pies & cookies
11~ i broke my tail(ass) last summer
12~i came in last in the mtka 8k!! HA! true look!!
race results
scroll all the way down!!
*it was the most wonderful rainy muddy morning of puddle jumping & just being alive*
13~colman says i'm memorable..funny ... & deaf
14~ants on a log...yummmm
15~i wear mismatched socks when i wear boots
16~ i LOVE all the incredible saints that my sisters short life gifted me...
*this includes you em.. my adopted niece*
17~is am are was were be been being =helping verbs not bad huh?
18~ i very rarely use caps or punctuate properly.. you notice?! HA!
19~the gold band i wear was my dads wedding band.. my sister wore it before me
20~ i have an inny belly button!

so there ya go sweet em... i love you!!
x0x0x0x

*** harmony boulevard ***

* harmony boulevard *

i have charming cottages
&
inviting bungalows
on my mind

with my farmhouse for sale
i just know
...i will find the perfect home...


...under a violet sky...
...full of twinkling dancing copper stars...
... lawns ready for hop-scotch...
... trees that curl in the soft breeze...

...wishing...
...dreaming...

...no worries...
i'll find it
or
i'll
create it
:)

enjoy*
~ maggie ~

harmony boulevard is available
here

*** a girl full of yada yada ***

* boys are ridiculous*

ha!!
really...
i am stunned by a good 75% of them!!
the ones i have as friends are so amazing!!!
what happened to the single ones
that i run into
?!?!?!?

i thought dating would be much different from dating in my early 20's

wishy washy in your 40's .....
really?!?!?!

men
unsure of who they are
what they
want
need
desire

i have dated men who turn out to be
~ OUTRAGEOUS liars
~ demanding of time
~ demanding of me
~ color their hair
* this is seriously bizarre to me *
* i love silver streaked hair on men think george clooney *
~ have called me
"a leaky bucket"
because i order diet coke with dinner
~ turn out to be bullies
~ have no integrity
~ think they can buy me
~ are upset when i don't get jealous
~ are upset when i do my own thing
~ insist i can't be happy
~ insist i hate my ex-husband
~ even one that ate ice cream knowing their
lactose intolerant!!!
yeah...seriously gross huh?

****don't worry i moved on****

one of the strangest things i have noticed
if i am kind... pay attention ... listen...
ignore their drama
*yes men you add silly drama*

be a friend

they assume
obsessed

yes
* images of glen close
scariest female actress in history
movie "fatal attraction" flashs through
my head
she scares the hell out of me *

now with me....
i chatter
be it text... phone... whatever
*chatterbox*
so it is not unlikely to get a random text from me
saying basically
NOTHING
*Ex: remind me to take the bowling ball outta the
back of my truck it's rolling around & driving me nuts!
*Ex: ooo look to the east it looks like the Simpsons sky
*Ex: :P
*Ex: balloon boy cnn hurry turn it on!!!

apparently
translated in mens minds
* she loves me *

no matter how many times you gently use the word
friend
they don't believe you

so i ask.....
*are men STILL unable to have friendships with women?
*do they believe that they are not
worthy/capable of just a friendship?
*have they all fell victim to those terrible women on
bridezillas
**a program i admit to being amazed by**
~ demanding
~ emasculating
~ obnoxious
~ insecure

have we as women ruined them??
*that seems silly...i give them more credit ...
men haven't ruined
US
**
bad relationships....
bad marriages...
what the hell happened????

when i was married i didn't have to worry about
being misunderstood
with a comment or compliment
to a male friend
but
now being single ..
I DO
!?!?!?!

did my wedding ring actually work as a buffer??
she's married its all good?
with affairs & divorce rate
i doubt it

i have to learn to really curb my thoughts...
comments
behavior
and
this
is
VERY
difficult for
me!

i am the little sister of 3
i go into
* little sister pest mode *
when misunderstood
it's a syndrome
i'm self diagnosed

i will pester you with hellos
&
yada yada
even if i sense you think i'm totally digging you

i continue on with the friendship until you
loosen up & figure out
that's all it is

* me *
a girl full of
yada yada

&
yes
i admit
.. it fascinates me ...
men your reactions to
kindness
thoughtfulness
friendship
fascinating

******
...sincerely...
~ maggie ~*
aka
your pesky friend

* Día de los Muertos *

* Día de los Muertos *

it's just around the corner..
november 2
it seemed fitting to celebrate it today...
the death of so much in my world
but what a rebirth**

i have been thinking a lot of
"my time line"
sorta sounds weird but i literally
feel like the rug was pulled out from beneath me..
swift & hard ..
&
yes
i totally fell on my ass!

i have never put it on paper.. .
or really dated things
in my blurrrrrr......
i still tell people i just moved to MN because i feel like i just did!!
i think we all have our blurrs...
this is mine

may 2007 move cross country from AZ to MN
aug 2007 second move in MN about 8 miles
* crazy neighbors ** REALLY CRAZY i don't regret moving AT ALL *
aug 2008 dad passes away
may 2009 find out my husband wants a divorce
** from my father-in-law.. at the local applebees **
** REALLY i thought i was being punked**
July 2009 sister passes away leaving 5 young children
* i made the gut-wrenching call to my mom telling her her oldest daughter died *
july 2010 my divorce is final & i find out i have to sell my home
aug 2010 son..3 dogs..cat & i move in with my sister-in-law & brother until house sells
sept 2010 renovations to sell my house begin
oct 2010 house is ready to sell & put on the market

now we are here
*
..waiting
for a buyer

these last 3 years
i have learned more than words...
my bad grammar
&
horrible punctuation can express

love
life
material things
in a millisecond
can be

* gone *

if you don't have

*family*friends*self-love*character*belief*dreams*hopes*faith*integrity

you got nothing

don't let those moments to connect slip away
they will
&
ooo so fast

*i am so grateful to have had my moments*

today i celebrate you
dad & susie
my angels
i miss you
i love you
i thank you
i laugh with you
i smile with you
i cry with you

*you two are amazing & i learn from you daily
thank you for picking me up
walking with me & keeping my faith alive*

* kisses to heaven *

i love you

~ maggie ~